ravered

bylaws

2009-01-12T05:22:15Z

I was checking up local bylaws and it seems kind of rediculous that we have laws to make sure we don't piss each other off. I think thats the basic purpose of laws. Most of the ones I read were the ones that focused on basically everyday life, then some laws that had to deal with things that had to deals with specific problems with INDIVIDUALS and not really benefit people as a whole. It seems people don't care about their civil liberties to do activities that they like to do but rather keep to themselves and sit on their ass and watch television and not be disturbed. It's contidictory to what people are natural to do. People, much like other animals live in groups and rely on each other to prosper, live and have fun. Bill Mckibben that wrote "Deep Econonomy" stated that most people feel the best days of their lives are when they are younger, or when they are in college. They are surrounded by friends (people) and live more fullfilling lives because they are around others. With our society being so individualistic it seems that people seclude to their home and refuse to go out and meet people. It seems that people that have no cars and have opportunities to interact with others have a more enriching and meaningful life when they interact with others. Some memories I have from this is when I went to visit my grandfather, even though he is semi estranged (by distance), when we would sit around without a tv and ENJOY one anothers company instead of putting on a performance to be liked by the other person. The point is that we should help each other because we are a commuinity and every one should be treated by the quality of their hearts and not by other superficial means (which i am also guilty).

Alligator Wrestling

2009-01-10T20:46:29Z

When I go across country in april im hitting mosca, colorado's alligator wrestling school. You can wrestle with 600lb alligators for only $50. hell yeah!

not so bad

2009-01-04T04:29:50Z

Just out of school and no job or even a prospect of a job, but I haven't lost hope. Our economy isn't the greatest but I know it could be worse because of watching a documentary on african politics, particularly because of the diamond trade. The RUF and Interhabwaue have had more direct influence on people than the companies that have been exploiting their own people. Kind of a indirect way of hurting their own people. It seems that no matter how much we seem to strive equality, we as people will never truly accomplish this task. It's sad that we have had this much time to preach through religion, ideological views and science to better understand ourselves and philosophy, that we haven't been able to strive equality. That's probably why in america that a select few are depressed, uncertain, unconfident and decide to harm themselves to cope with the pain of these troubles by physical pain to alleviate their worries and have some release. I think people today are too comfortable and rely on pain and risk to their own life today because we have no need to worry about our future because we are too secure in our lives.
This is probably why I dont want to not have a stable job and decide to work my life away or find a full time job. I want to risk living. strive to learn everything and meet people from everywhere instead of staying put in one location. The only plave I have felt truly like I belong is in college, because of my ex and my friends and I have chosen to leave that behind in a way. I love to move and change, but sometimes I feel like I can't truly allow myself to be loved by anyone because I value my independence because my love of change. It's lonely and an idealistic view that will ultimately lead to me being alone. This isn't how people are supposed to live, because we need others to truly live.

End of School finally in sight

2008-12-15T00:01:24Z

I got only 5 more exams to do and im done. It's kind of sad in a way seeing it's over, but im sick and tired of repeating the same task over and over again. I hate doing papers and exams, which have no creative elements to them at all. Its the basic eat and regurgitate task all the time. Plus im also sick of living in this apartment, the place is always dirty and theirs people in and out all the time and it drives me nuts. Too many people makes me not even want to talk to anyone unless I have to. It is going to be nice once I get back home and start working again...

Worth while

2008-11-05T06:28:50Z

Hopefully with luck and faith that our legislator will actually vote with the peaple, well will have number 2 accepted into our states laws and regulations to decriminalize cannibis. the police now have more important things to focus on than individual use of a drug and focus more on things that really matter like vicims of actual crimes (robbery, homicide, ect...). It won by 62%!!!

Voicing your Opinion

2008-11-04T01:08:21Z

Me and a couple friends decided to go out during rush hour traffic and hold up signs supporting question number 2 on the massachusetts ballot tommorrow. Number two is the Decriminalization of Marijuana clause. For the most part we got alot of laughs, smiles, honks and people supporting it. I got a couple middle fingers, a shut up and someone trying to convince me to change my mind, hilarious considering I spent 6 hours out in the cold today to promote the passing of the bill.
I was ackward at first standing out there infront of police officers directing traffic at the time I was doing it. But they didn't hassel me or my friends at all.
"Save Mass 120.6 Million Dollars a Year" "Vote for Number 2"
"1/2 of you have tried it" "Silent Majority Vote on 2"
"Vote for Mickey Mouse" "Or Vote on question 2"
Good Signs :).

damn

2008-11-02T05:20:54Z

Can't sleep drunken clowns will eat me. Can't sleep drunken clowns will eat me. Can't sleep Drunken clowns will eat me. Can't sleep drunken clowns will eat me. Damn you Halloween!

Chillin'

2008-11-01T21:33:25Z

Just chillin right now and gonna take a nap. Listening to a new cd by Conjure One. It's pretty sick. Electronic, Classic, and ambient vocals, makes you want to relax and dance or nod your head, depending how you slide.

Volkswagon

2008-10-25T01:46:47Z

Anyone else think it's disturbing that volkswagons commercials are focused on babies and "German Engineering". I tried explaining it to some people but they don't see the connection.

In the postin' mood

2008-10-25T01:43:29Z

I think everyone feels the same one way or the other about feeling out of place. Yeah you have friends, but somehow you feel out of place. I see how education is great for you but also it has made me more cynical of life as well. It's a good quality but also a bad one as well. Sometimes you would rather be uninformed because of the fact that you don't have to think about issues that are troublesome and burdening. What ever happened to the egalitarian societies where possession and self worth is as equal to the next person. Where everyone despite sex and age can work together and see themselves as equals. I find it rather ironic we go to school to be able have the OPPORTUNITY to express our skills, even though they are present to begin with. I remember packaging servers at this company where I saw engineers that have had a formal education working on these peices of equipment on an assembly line like system that undermines the whole idea of them going to school for 4 years and spending money on their education. Their jobs consisted of basically hooking the server up to a computer to do diognostic tests. It seems like a waste of potential minds to invent and progress to create quality instead of quantity. When we live in a world where we strive to complete the bare minimum no wonder we have people, not much unlike myself, that drink, do drugs and escape from a world were we do not feel unique or special in any way and ultimatly feel out of place and unwanted as a result. In order to feel like your are worth while you have to entertain with extravegence to even get attention, because unless we are shocked we are constantly in a state of apathy. That's probably why I am drawn to me peircing, branding and tattooing myself as a result. Damn I don't even know why I type this stuff anyway, so damn depressing. probably lack of sex. lol.

ravered @ 2008-10-24T19:44:00

2008-10-24T23:48:16Z

Finally im finishing school and going to be up and out of here. The only thing is leaving friends behind agian. I guess you get used to it after a while. I've moved so many times and it seems it never gets old. The only thing is making new friends again and starting the cycle all over again. It'll be nice making money again and saving it towards something like a house. I figure in about 10 years I'll be able to buy one with little problems getting the money. I figure I can buy a boat and live on the thing for a while until I save enough to pay for at least half of it. I'm sure it'll be unconfortable but after seeing my friend that has done it, it doesn't seem to uncomfortable. Plus it allows for me to move more regularly if I choose which will probably be best until I decide to settle down. PS I think I'm gonna have to wear my tie at graduation as a noose, I'm sure some would get a kick out of it :)

What do you want to do when you grow up?

2008-10-15T03:43:02Z

Ever since living in Hawaii I have been linked with the ocean. I could remember the warm breezes, warm people, and warm water. I have swung into rivers, surfed the waves and explored the reefs of the islands. I've been going to school to get my degree in english, which is kind of ironic considering that none of my plans after school have anything to do with the degree. I've been working as a fisherman collecting scallops, doing labor jobs and I love it. Theres nothing better than getting up, putting on a dry suit and jumping on a boat to go to work. Rough days are the best because on the way out waves hit the hull of the boat and sprays everything including your tongue to create a salty morning wake up call. The smell of mint toothpaste when you put on the mask (defogs the mask), and the chilly water that soaks all the way to your bones. The best is that I am my own boss. If I was to move back to hawaii I would lose that whole experience, but would be trading it for another one of equal but different excellence. I would be surfing everyday after work and when I'm free. Scuba diving and possibly teaching other to do so as well. Decisions like this are difficult.

gotta get motivated

2008-09-24T11:36:36Z

I am finally graduating. hell yeah! now I can start making money and paying off my loans. Seeing the job that I has been closed off I think I'm going to use my english degree to become a full time scuba diver. Go make some money and work for myself by scalloping and also instructing people to dive. I've been thinking about living on a boat too in the harbor, which would suck. But, I am able to save some money and by a house or two down south so I don't have to worry about this giant rat race in massachusetts. I feel lucky that I broke up with my ex, because I wouldn't be able to do the stuff I want to do, like travel and scuba dive. I'll be doing something I love to do and so should everyone. Also I got to go to the gym today before my cold gets worse, damn you Fall!!!

Got the Smack Down!

2008-09-16T18:10:46Z

I woke up this morning tired and hurtin'. My shoulder got wrenched out of place last night when I refused to give up in a wrestling match and now I can barely use my arm. It hurts pretty bad. It's kind of funny though because now I walk like something out of night of the living dead or some other romero film. I guess I should be using this opportunity to do homework seeing I can't move very well at all. I wish I had a sling. I brushed my teeth, showered , went to the bathroom and even walked and it hurts whenever I do anything, even typing, ouch! That'll teach me to wrestle anymore :) By the way did I mention it hurts?

Randomness

2008-09-15T13:53:53Z

Well, I'm going to the mars volta concert tonight and accually it's my first concert that ive been to so I'm stoked. The only thing is that it's in providence so it's gonna be a ride, but it's gonna be awesome. Also I think I better update my photo's, because these ones are so damn old. well anyways I got to get stuff done before I have to leave to the concert.

Start Writing Again

2008-09-14T22:43:07Z

Finally back where I started, or soon to be. Out of school and making money. Well the first thing i'm gonna do is hike the appalachian trail and head out on a 4-6 month vacation. It sounds adventurous, fun and above all challenging. But, what i've noticed about going to college the most, is that it wasn't wasted at all, I've made friends, lost friends and come out unscathed for the most part. One thing i've noticed also is that people can change overtime, every couple of years it seems people progress change thier attitudes and personalities. This currently has been very hard for me, because I prefer who I was then instead of now. I have felt resentful, but I have learned to accept that this comes with age and experience. This is the cross to bare when growing.

ravered @ 2006-01-07T10:29:00

2006-01-07T15:39:02Z

I wish, I wish, I hadn't killed that fish. Something im gonna try to do more often is write everyday. I don't know how much, but just writing helps, considering that I want to become a writer. Unfortunatly i've been out of the who blog game and am kind of rusty, but ill pick it up soon. I've been sick like from working outside in the cold which sucks. It gets cold in the winter time. Dress right and you'll be fine, but if you slip up once, nature will be unforgiving. Hence that is why I have a cold, but luckly it's only a moderate cold. I'm up with my girl nikki, it feels good to see her again, I missed her much and couldn't wait to get up here.
Yesterday when I was in the bank I noticed that most of the people on nantucket are working class regular people and everyone thinks they are all rich. Sure they get paid alot but with gas and living expenses soo high that it really doesn't matter. They are working ants for politicians, rich kids, and assholes. They cater to the super rich to help propel the domination of the once virgin island that was conquered by whalers, fishermen, and simple people. This virgin island is now a resort town in which I hate. It is a prison such as alcatraz in which you work execivly and somedays are allowed if your slave driver or yourself allows a day trip to the "Mainland", to splurge and spend your money like a hungry sailor that has a overabundance of wealth that eggs him to spend. From there the vicious cycle propetiuates itself until you die. That is why I must go to school, stay with nikki and complete my life journey away from this place of servitude. This is all that I have to say.

hey

2005-01-04T02:03:26Z

Yeah im just bored right now. seeing Nikki went back home and now im stuck in nantucket like usual. Im scalloping right now which is nice because i can make tons of money but it's wicked hard work of course but hey it's good money. I've been kicking around and had an awesome new years. Got wasted and thats about it. Well ill be turning 21 soon. YYYYEEEEEEEAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhh. :) well i plan on getting wasted then and having my parents drag me out of the bar. lol sounds like fun. then they'll be all worried about me and crap. lol well next time.

ravered @ 2004-12-01T16:32:00

2004-12-01T21:33:03Z

On approaching the gates of Hell,
The sky cracked violently and changed black,
Warning all who enter of its spell
That will never let you leave or turn back.
The tempered iron black gates,
Buckled too and fro with a chain of slack
And struggles of sinners who await their fate.
The inhabitants perched high upon the wall
And would swoop and catch their prey.
The sinners ran screaming in a tone abysmal
Enough to send any sane man astray.
One sinner struggled and kicked,
But it was a futile attempt to his dismay.
As effortlessly as this fury picked
This sinner it dripped him in his place.
In the far off distance sat a mountain.
Not any mountain, but with a face
And also burning eyes and no rain,
Nor moisture can cool this creature’s malice.
His hatred drove him away from god and insane.
He sits and sees all in his horrid burning palace.
He is the punisher of sinners, he’s named Satan.
In the distance drums are beating,
A wheel is being spun by one tortured man
And as this wheel spins faster so does the screaming.
The pit below this wheel lays the lustful.
They sift in the pot of mixing.
This mixes their lust and everything viral.
Separated by a heated red glowing river,
A Demon pokes at a sinner with his spear.
The Demon lunges and pokes out his liver,
And the sinner screams so all can hear.
The thieves endure this treatment.
And in the river no one can hear
The cries of their verbal contorture.
This is the resting place of the betrayer’s.
They construed and twisted another’s fate
And would be better known as liars.
Now they scream for forgiveness, but are too late.
When one enters hell there is no way out its gate.

Muhwahahaha. Something for school so i figured i would post it
Kind of sucks! lol

damnit

2004-11-30T18:03:40Z

well im studying so i can write a 4 page essay i have to read about 100 more pages which will take me about 3 hours probably. then i have to start writing 2 essays and write an hour long transcript. oh yeah. sounds like fun. The kitten is really cute and always sleeping with me now. It look like it's tail was dipped in oil lol. Well i think im gonna sign off right now and chill and finish my crap. damnit this sucks

im back again

2004-11-29T20:28:56Z

well i haven't posted in a while and should. That's if anyone actually reads this which i don't think they do. But, oh well. Since the last post i've gone to London and chilled at a crack house hostel. If you're into partying and feeling unsafe that's the place to go. Right down the streetthere is a club called the Richmonds where you can get shitty and end up partying until 2am which is still early but alot of fun. I have a girlfreind now finally which i love very much. You know who you are if you read this. I'm back in school hating it and just recently worked my ass off last week. Lot's of fun. well i'll post later when i got something funny or important to say.

reflection

2004-06-06T08:07:59Z

I noticed tonight when drunk that you reflect more on stuff when it's right on your doorstep so to speak. What people usually think about when drunk is stuff they don't or can't have and let me tell you, it sucks. One thinks why can't i have that and why don't i have that? well the answer is simple, there are two people in life. The ones that "desire" and the ones that "acheive". I've noticed the people that desire are better people when it deals with friendship. The one's that achieve are selfish which makes them horrible friends.

Well my night consisted of meeting up with stacy driving around getting wine and such for a party. we went to the range chilled with people. then drove gibbs pond which took about 2 hours to find then got there and then i went to the lake and sat because there was no one that i wanted to talk to or even look at. so i decided to just sit back and do nothing and of course i got stuck driving some people back home. nothing came out good of this day. im done doing stuff for other people. Fuck them because if it was up to them to help me it wouldn't happen. so fuck everyone.

oh yeah

2004-04-27T15:38:00Z

I stretched my ears to 6g awesomeness!

Strange

2004-04-27T15:35:46Z

Had a dream last night was kind of strange. All i remember is everytime i coughed i coughed up blood. I remember seeing it on my hands in front of me. Wierd. Well went to hampton beach a while ago that was fun. Went to a party last weekend played babysitter which i didn't mind because i wanted to give everyone the chance to get trashed. Classes are getting really boring and i want to go nuts. AHHHh well its not that bad just i don't want to write my 10 page research report in english. I hate writing.

can't sleep

2004-04-21T05:39:07Z

Ever see that t-shirt "can't sleep clowns will eat me"? well i can't sleep for some reason im not tired but i got up pretty earlier today i think. mmm what ever. Well nothin much happened so far. NY was fun. Saw tons of stuff there like the empire state building(from afar) also saw many other things union sq. the marriot, broadway. it was a great trip well worth it. well laters